lazy

now playing: aunt pat, "saddest cowgirl"


so after today, there's the weekend, and then it's back to the usual day-to-day.

i don't know that i really got much of a sense of being aware of the holidays at all this year, save for christmas eve, during my traditional "buy a bottle of champagne and stay up wrapping all the kids' presents while watching 'it's a wonderful life' and the alastair sim version of 'a christmas carol' on tv" routine. that was about it, really.

last night, i found myself in the studio, listening to some history and digging up old mixes from "our mutual angels"...turned out to be interesting. i heard some things that were ultimately left out of the final mixes that were intriguing, and some of the songs actually sounded better in rawer form than they did on the album. one song, "is that enough", specifically suffered at the hands of some pretty ruthless edits. an entire verse was left out, and a nice little instrumental transition as well. but, ya know....whaddayagonnado?

independent side work keeps pouring in - which is great. i never got the callback regarding the consulting gig that could still be up in the air, for all i know....this time of year is pretty chaotic for trying to deal with situations like this, with key people being indisposed at various times. i'll give it a week or so before i resign myself to considering it a good idea that never moved past the discussion stage.

i'm starting this weekend with my usual high hopes and to-be-dashed-at-a-later-date expectations regarding what i'd like to get done...the odds are against me, considering that it's wild card weekend and that there are two games a piece on saturday and sunday, and i'm recognizing this fact now, as i make my plans to rearrange the basement and move stuff down from the regular quarters and work on tracks for blake's record. so i guess i'll just acknowledge right now that my weekend will probably consist of sleeping too much and lounging in front of the tv watching football.

every time i use the word "lazy" to describe myself to anyone who knows me, i get this look of disbelief, as if i'd just grown a foot long tree out of my forehead. no one i know thinks of me as lazy but myself....well, probably my kids from time to time...i'll have to ask them. i feel lazy when i know that my plate is full, but i choose to utilize downtime instead of being responsible and getting the work done. maybe it's a combination of laziness and procrastination.

when i say this to friends, though, they see a guy hustling from work to people's houses to do computer work and then going home to pick up guitars to rush to a gig and back home to sleep a few hours before getting up and going right back out there to do it again...and perhaps lazy doesn't present itself as an adjective for good reason, but i have a tendency to feel guilty if there's a project on the table and i'm not working on it for whatever reason.

this weekend, with all that i have to do, i think the word 'lazy' may very well make a cameo appearance.