debatable logic

now playing: dar williams, "it's a war in there"


well, what to say about the implosion of the eagles last night?


i think they had a solid shot until the last five minutes of the game, when they gave up and played as if their asses were already kicked...no no-huddle, no sense of urgency - it was as if they'd smoked too much dope at halftime, diggin' on the nostagia-trip halftime show. i expected the game to be a lot more one-sided than it was, but they played tough...new england kept trying to run corey dillion to the left side of the line, over and over again, with the same result every time...he only began to have some degree of success when he started running to the opposite side of the line of scrimmage.

the eagles played the whole back half of the fourth quarter like a team that was down by twenty points and already beaten.


so, to summarize - the eagles beat themselves last night, just like they usually do in clutch situations.



in other news, wendy's parents arrive in reading on friday - that's this friday.

we're not messin' around, here.

one of the houses she's looking at is literally a block away from where we live now...close enough that i could probably drop a football into her back yard from the sidewalk in front of my house. she seems perfectly comfortable with the concept, which strikes me as odd...i would think she'd want a bit more distance between the two of us. perhaps this is just me projecting my own feelings onto this - in that maybe i'd be a bit more comfortable with some additional distance. i'd rather not have to consciously subdue the temptation to keep tabs on her...to drive by on occasion to see if she has "company" and the like. and how would she feel about seeing a strange car in her old parking space, should the tables be turned? i mean, that particular phase (the curiosity phase, if you will) usually passes rather quickly, but then again, i've never had an ex end up quite so underfoot.

it took me a while to get a hand on the logic behind staying in pennsylvania in the first place...this one may take a while, too.

i might look at it differently if it were a situation where we'd be inclined to stay in touch after our separation, but i don't think that's going to be the case. she has a good relationship with the other two partners from what one might consider significant relationships...her ex-fiance', steve (called "the toad" for the early part of our relationship), and her college boyfriend, adam (who lives just three hours south of us, in northern virginia). i would come right out and predict that wendy and adam stand a good chance of reconnecting after the dust settles here, but adam has a child by another woman who, while not romantically connected to him, is still very much a part of his life. and i'd have to say, based on the paranoia and thinly-veiled hostility that wendy has exhibited towards certain past girlfriends of mine, that this probably wouldn't play very well with her on a real-life, day-to-day basis.

in theory, maybe.

in practice, probably not.

but then again, what do i know?

i know that she's already bought tickets to an o's-red sox game that they're attending together in the spring...and i know that she's had them for a while now. i know that she saw him last fall, but only bothered to formally come clean and tell me about it within the last couple of weeks. i know that she's had a handful of pictures of his son incorporated into her computer screensaver for months now.

so, inasmuch as predictions go, it could be said that the writing is on the wall, and has been for some time now...but it's not as if i busted my ass to do anything about it. in fact, if i were totally honest with myself, i think i've actually hoped at times that they would end up together at some point. i'm sure that i've probably felt in the past that if they were to reconnect, then i'd be off the hook, somehow. whether that logic makes sense at all is highly debatable, but i'm sure that i've thought this at some point.


the circumstances of their breakup essentially had to do with distance and nothing else. there was no acrimony, no hard feelings, no bitterness toward the other...the only issue was that she was in one place and he was in another - or at least that's the way it's been outlined to me. so it's almost as if they never actually "broke up", in the traditional sense of the word.

but i'm relatively certain that, whatever might happen or not happen, i won't be around to witness it.

because i don't think that being friends after the split is in the cards for us. i don't think there's any genuine interest in that on either side of the table.

this is much more likely to be a "clean break" split...once the truck pulls away, that'll be it. unless she leaves something behind or something trivial like that, that'll be the last time i see her.


and i think i've made peace with that, too. there doesn't seem to be much point in making it harder than it has to be by dragging things out. other than the sporadic "do you have my crowded house cd?" phone call, i think this whole thing will be forgotten in a years' time. certainly, for her i would think it will...it might take a little longer for the individual keeping the house that we shared (moi), but i think that we've both been unhappy for long enough that there's very little desire to think about revisiting any of this.


and right now, i feel pretty OK about that.


feel free to ask me again, though, in a couple of months.


especially if i have to drive by her house for whatever reason and see a car with virginia plates and a car seat parked on the curb.


i know how pathetic all this sounds...but let he who is without sin cast the first barb.