the bubbles
now playing: mary chapin carpenter, "come on come on"
you see them at the bottom of the pot, starting to rise slowly from the floor up to the surface right before the water starts to boil...
that particular pot is my personal metaphor for the day thus far.
i'm finding more and more that the concept of planning is a waste of time in my life as its' presently being lived. i honestly don't know anyone else who has demands on their time coming from more directions than i do. now, here i go, climbing up on the soapbox again, to bitch and moan and do my little "woe is me" dance, but the fact is, i absolutely have to learn to start drawing some lines and creating some boundaries and practicing the fine art of saying "no" on occasion.
i blew my entire morning working on a laptop that wouldn't acknowledge the presence of its soundcard drivers, even though they were installed, showed up ok in device manager, and had an IRQ assigned. it was maddening, and it wasn't on my LOSTD (list of shit to do), so i'm hopelessly behind enough at this point that i don't feel as though i'll make any further headway today (it is, after all, almost 4 o'clock), so i've now sunk into my large, comfy "fuck it" persona, and will probably ride out the day sittin' right here, thank you very much. the price i'll pay for that is that i'll almost definitely be in here at least one day this weekend. i have a maniac QA manager running around the plant like the fuckin' pied piper, setting up workstations with accounts from some ISO9001 company, and so far, not a lot of them are working properly - and not too many of our workstations have soundcards on them, and they're necessary for the online tutorials that come with this stuff. so there's more work right there, in addition to the troubleshooting angle....
wrong move at the wrong time.
throw it on the pile.
the irritant, though, is just feeling taken for granted. feeling as though everyone feels that they should be at the top of my list...or at least behaving like it. i'm starting to get the feeling that i'm never gonna get caught up, never gonna get everyone off my back. i've put myself in the position, though, by doing all my own warranty work and by committing to so many customers and taking on so much work - so i can only resent it in an internal sense, a passive sense...because most of these demands are legitimate, so what am i supposed to do? it's business. i have to make good on my word to complete projects, to make house calls for paid customers who have large issues with their machines, to answer phone calls at crazy hours - i signed up for this.
my family, however, did not.
and guess who gets the short straw where tom's time is concerned?
i have to find a way to say no, to say not right now, to politely decline...otherwise, i'm not gonna last much longer. this is becoming too much.
you see them at the bottom of the pot, starting to rise slowly from the floor up to the surface right before the water starts to boil...
that particular pot is my personal metaphor for the day thus far.
i'm finding more and more that the concept of planning is a waste of time in my life as its' presently being lived. i honestly don't know anyone else who has demands on their time coming from more directions than i do. now, here i go, climbing up on the soapbox again, to bitch and moan and do my little "woe is me" dance, but the fact is, i absolutely have to learn to start drawing some lines and creating some boundaries and practicing the fine art of saying "no" on occasion.
i blew my entire morning working on a laptop that wouldn't acknowledge the presence of its soundcard drivers, even though they were installed, showed up ok in device manager, and had an IRQ assigned. it was maddening, and it wasn't on my LOSTD (list of shit to do), so i'm hopelessly behind enough at this point that i don't feel as though i'll make any further headway today (it is, after all, almost 4 o'clock), so i've now sunk into my large, comfy "fuck it" persona, and will probably ride out the day sittin' right here, thank you very much. the price i'll pay for that is that i'll almost definitely be in here at least one day this weekend. i have a maniac QA manager running around the plant like the fuckin' pied piper, setting up workstations with accounts from some ISO9001 company, and so far, not a lot of them are working properly - and not too many of our workstations have soundcards on them, and they're necessary for the online tutorials that come with this stuff. so there's more work right there, in addition to the troubleshooting angle....
wrong move at the wrong time.
throw it on the pile.
the irritant, though, is just feeling taken for granted. feeling as though everyone feels that they should be at the top of my list...or at least behaving like it. i'm starting to get the feeling that i'm never gonna get caught up, never gonna get everyone off my back. i've put myself in the position, though, by doing all my own warranty work and by committing to so many customers and taking on so much work - so i can only resent it in an internal sense, a passive sense...because most of these demands are legitimate, so what am i supposed to do? it's business. i have to make good on my word to complete projects, to make house calls for paid customers who have large issues with their machines, to answer phone calls at crazy hours - i signed up for this.
my family, however, did not.
and guess who gets the short straw where tom's time is concerned?
i have to find a way to say no, to say not right now, to politely decline...otherwise, i'm not gonna last much longer. this is becoming too much.
posted by tom at 15:45
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